So, it's been awhile...
Interesting, when I first started this blog I figured it would be a great way to express myself outwardly. You see, I used to think that although I have many friends, I feel that I have very few that are close enough to me that I feel free to express those things that are truly internal. I mean, don't get me wrong, those who know me know that I'm pretty much an open book. However, there are still those things that, with only a few, you share. And even at that, I really didn't have anyone. So, why not do it to the wide open public of the world wide web? (Sounded good at the time...)
Now, when I started these postings, I was in a very different place than where I am now. At the time I felt the need to analyze my internal thought process. Figure out who I was, where I was going, even where I was. Life, as I knew it, was in turmoil. Ok, not turmoil (I don't really do that extreme), but everything that I thought I knew really wasn't. I did know that much, but I didn't know where things would take me and what was to come. Things are different now....
I think my analyzing has proven to me that I knew the answers all along....
I don't really need the answers. I know who and what I am and where I came from. I know what I want and where I am going. I know that those who are close to me and remain in my life do so for a reason. They see in me what I do. As for the rest, they come and go and sometimes it's fun, but ultimately they don't really matter. I don't mean to sound cynical, it's simple really. They don't. Those that stick are of substance. They 'get' it. They 'get' me in all my freaky nuances and habits. I am to them what I am to myself...Special, unique, fun and utmost worthy.
To the few of you who all into this category I thank you. To those of you who don't, well I am truly sorry for you because you don't know what you are missing. But that's where it ends. To those of you to come who will fit and are special too I look forward to the opportunity, good times and great memories ahead.
May all of you take the time to reflect on all the good that has come over the past year. Embrace it, remember it, learn from it and continue to bring and pay it forward with you.
Cheers to a very Merry Christmas and all the best to everyone in 2010!
May you find solace and comfort in you.
TTFN
Stephanie
